CRAP! crappity crap! crappy crapsicles! there's the NTU competition next week ='( im scared. haha. no, SERIOUSLY. i am. ive never been very competitive. and i hate competitions of any sort =( especially the kind when your individual performance affects the performance of the whole team. what if because of me the marks are pulled down???? because of MY and nobody else's SUCKY PERFORMANCE??? im scared. shut up, i know im a big ol' scaredy cat. but this big ol' scaredy cat is really afraid of competition. ='( as in, if like, we were in a group or something, like in primary school when we joined the syf for handbells, theres not so much pressure . you know? YOU KNOW? oh, charles is shooting too!! heehee i saw his name on the guys' list. i was actually looking for kaiyuan, but tada! i saw charles instead. heheh. he seems quite..confident. its scary. everything is scary!!!!!!!! im standing beside this CJ girl whose name is melissa. doesnt the name 'melissa' make her sound like she's really pro??????? save me. next week is a shitty week!!! there's math test on wednesday, training on monday, wed and thurs, bio spa on friday, and competition on saturday!!! OMG. will i live to write about this? charles said his coach tells them to do a full detail once in a while. WE'VE never even tried shooting 40 shots, let alone done a full detail. the panic is REALLY starting to kick in. i would say im scared shitless but that isnt a very pleasant phrase to publish on this family-friendly blog. how how how? SHIT. F. HOW????????!!!!!!!!!!!! someone, please save me. im freaking out. I HATE NEXT WEEK. =( OH FISH. RESULTS ARE COMING OUT TOO. THAT MEANS MY CHINESE AND PROJECT WORK. FISH. fish never tasted this good. i feel..stressed. i like fish.
