gosh, what the jadedness of work can do an otherwise completely sane mind. haha..this morning, i was reading my chemmy notes and then i thought, hey! my pillowcase looks pretty crumpled! and so i took it upon myself to iron it, its fascinating how heat can remove creases. it made me think of alpha helices and hydrogen bonds and stuff..haha..it feels really weird talking to him now..i feel so distant from him. i feel like im talking to someone i just knew. its like, i dont know what to say to him. and he sounds i dunno, sianish most of the time. maybe he doesnt like talking to me or something..i dont know..i mean, he's probably happier talking with other people..i dont come online very often, so i dont see him very often either, but i just thought i'd say hello today. i think its like, the first time in a very very long time since ive talked to him online. and it lasted such a short time too, cuz he had to go. and its like, so much has happened and all that, that it has rendered me uncertain of what to say in his presence. sounds stupid right..i mean, i bet he doesnt even feel the same way..haha..okay..this isnt good..how come im still feeling like this after all this time? got to go..dinner's ready.
